Has it really been a year?

Man, this really sucks. It has been almost a year since I fell off the wagon. Still paying for my WW monthly pass, but haven't weighed in since sometime this September and my attendance was really spotty even before then.

I am guessing I've gained back about 20 pounds. Exercise....what's that? Haven't lifted a weight or walked a mile in a month.

I'd like to say I am ready to be refocused and start again, but I just can't get over that bridge from gluttony back to health and wellness. Believe me I give myself a pep talk every day. "What do you really want out of life Brenda", I ask myself. "Health and feeling in control of my life", I answer. Then it's like I have ADD (no offense intended to anyone with the affliction) and get sidetracked by snickers bars in the office or the hubby suggesting pizza for dinner.

I actually wouldn't even be sitting here typing had it not been for a comment that I got in my email today on the last post I put out there over a year ago. Caroline, you know how to reach me, I would love to support each other. If you ever want to walk after work or something, please let me know.

So each day I give the pep talk and hope that it will be the day that I start turning the tide and unleash myself from the current that has me floating down the river.

WTF?????

First I want to say that I am not freaking out about this.
Yesterday I was up FOUR POUNDS at weigh in. I swear I checked behind me to see if the girl behind me had stuck her foot on the scale(no such luck)as a prank.

I have no idea if I am retaining something or what but I know that four pounds doesn't belong to me or is because of anything I have done wrong.
I had a great week. I used about 25 of my flex points but was under my points on other days of the week.

So, this sucks to have such a bounce up, but I don't blame myself.

Great Week

Last week I was down 1.8 pounds. I am in such a great place. Haven't been doing much exercising. Every night this week I had something to do and just haven't made time. I won't walk dogs outside right now because of deer season.
Today mom and I are doing a day of shopping after I weigh in.

Tea please

I am a new convert to drinking hot tea. It's been suggested numerous times by friends, but only recently did I buy my first box of Organic pomengrate white tea. I am such a fan. Each time I think of grabbing something to snack on at home or at work, I am making a cup of tea instead. I find it takes that snacky edge off.

I hate the water cooler at work (I just don't like the taste) so I had reverted to drinking way too much diet coke every day. This way I don't have to drink plain water. (Is it weird that it makes me feel grown up drinking it too?)

Eating has been great this week and I've made it to yoga a couple of times after work too. In Michigan after the time change, it is dark here at 5:30 pm so it's difficult to make myself do anything after work except snuggle with a poodle on the couch.

Paid Holidays

Now that I work for the County, I have more paid Holiday's than you can shake a stick at. Yesterday (Veteran's Day) was one of them. It was so nice to wake up and not have to go to work although I do feel guilty I didn't do anything to honor Veteran's.

I am having another great week. I've made it to yoga twice so far this week, and eating (with the exception of lunch with my stylist yesterday) has been right according to plan.

Weigh in Report for Saturday

Down 2 more pounds today. That puts me back at 72 pounds lost. Still a bit to go until I get all the gain off, but making progress.
I feel so clear headed. I don't have that manic eating feeling I had.

Election Results

Whew! Made it through that one by the skin of our teeth. My boss received 52.83% of the vote and her opponent got 46.91% of the vote. It was a very tight race all night. What an exciting night. The room was filled with local media, journalism students, and the candidates. The polls closed at 7pm and the precincts began bringing in their results about 10. At 1:30 am we were still waiting for 3 of our precincts to report however she had spoken to the clerks and they had told her that she won those precincts. At that point I had been working since 7am that morning and boss sent me home.

At about 11:30 when the news organizations were calling Obama the President Elect, I snuck off into another little room and did a happy dance. I know he isn't perfect, but I think Obama deserves a chance and our help to make the changes he talked about on the campaign trail.